Koneko Do - Kätzchen wird erwachsen

Beloved beast,

so much I have to tell you. But as the mat is calling, just this for now. I was watching an episode right now, getting the same feeling as then. I remembered, how I knew, that this was it, back then. What I want. Who I want. Kinda crazy, I thought at that time, but still. Especially I don't do this sort of crush. Liking something, yes. Very much, also. But that? No. Never. I haven't watched it since then. It felt a bit too creepy. When I did today, everything seem to match, all of a sudden. I knew the feeling. The reaction. The way, it touches me. Back then I couldn't know, but today it became clear, that the past experience was just a forecast, a intervention from something higher maybe (funny form, but anyway), getting me on the way of what I was missing. Giving me a first short glimpse. The full picture I have now. I recognized the feeling, the way it makes me feel. You make me feel like that. Remember the Chinese proverb? "Be careful, what you wish for. It might come true." Yes it did.

I know, darn magical thinking. Don't worry. Brain is still working. No relapses. & certainly even harder to understand than to explain – & I know, I am not doing a really good job here.

Ok: back then = Kätzchen life as it was, before this story here became to be written.

The forecast? What I just watched? Well, I think that is a very good riddle for you. What story – or what character – could give me an impression on how you would touch me?
Take a guess, smart brain.

I will listen to your recommended podcast later – I appreciate your letter very much. Thanks for sharing.
xxx